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Today is one of the greatest Saturday's that has ever been. I don't know why, it has barely started, but I am just so happy.

My new job has been working out great. I wake up at 6:00 every morning and by the time I get to the kids' house at 7:15 the sun is already starting to rise. It feels so good having something to do, some purpose, 5 days a week. You guys probably think I'm weird, most people don't LOVE having a full time job babysitting little kids, but I haven't worked (or done much of ANYTHING) for the last 6 months, so this is so refreshing. I love being tired at the end of the day, from working, working out, cooking and cleaning, Matt and I hit the hay around 8:30 :-)

The kids are pretty good. Sammy is in his terrible two's, but Bella is very quiet and polite, they really balance each other out. I really enjoy the relationship I've formed with Loretta, their mom. She is a very good mom, and I am learning a lot from her.

The past two weeks have really showed me a few things. I do NOT want kids as soon as I thought I did (within the next 4 or 5 years). I am not in the right place to raise a quality child, lol. I have so much to work on, my patience, my kindness and my understanding. Everyone has always said that raising kids is a "full time job", but I didn't realize the truth to that until now. It is literally a JOB. It doesn't end, you don't go home at the end of the day or on the weekend and relax. Your kids are still there in all their neediness. I didn't realize until now how exhausting that must be.

I know these all sound like stupid, obvious things I should have known before. But I didn't, not to this extent. I have realized the importance of waiting until you are ready to COMMIT fully to the responsibility of children. It's like marriage, you sign a contract, and you can't go back, you're in it from that day forward, and you better be ready. Ready to meet all your children's needs, to sacrifice things and time in your life, and to be understanding of the responsibility ahead.

So we're waiting... who knows how long.

Since Matt was laid off for a month from Dec-Jan. money has been a little "tight". He's just been back to work a couple weeks now and the bills are steadily pouring in. The other day I was very stressed (when I got all the bills) and no sooner was I running my mouth about how bad this was Matt noticed a message on our voicemail from a woman who wants me to watch her kids... 5 days a week. Needless to say that was ironic, but if you're a Christian I'm sure you've experienced something similar.

I didn't even have TIME to pray about my worries. Almost as if God was like "okay before you even START whining here you go." Just kidding, I know God loves me and my whining :-)

It's been 7 months since I've worked though, and I forgot about how nervous commitment (to a job) made me. Before I started at Urraco and Starbucks I was TERRIFIED. I think I stayed up all night the night before I had to start running through everything in my mind. That's just how I am.

Nonetheless no amount of nervous feelings or worry can sway me from this truly wonderful opportunity. I have been praying for months that God would open up a door for me to feel more useful and bring in an income and here he has provided. Praise the Lord for he is good!

On a more serious note...

If you have not read the Twilight series you need to, this is not a joke.

I have read a lot of fiction books and book series and this tramples them all to bits. I'm sure you've heard a lot about these books or even seen Twilight the movie, but you need to check them out for yourself. Here are a few great things about these books...

1) They deal with mythological creatures in a non-lame, even glorified way. It makes the world of vampires and werewolves so desirable and real, NOT sci-fi at all.

2) They deal with high school age kids in a non-lame way (which is RARE!). The two main characters of the book ARE in high school but the majority of the content of the books takes place outside of high school and high school aged people, places, and activities. This ISN'T a "tween" book, which I hate, so don't let your assumptions keep you from reading it. Matt is reading them, and he really likes them too!

3) Stephanie Meyer is an AMAZING writer, seriously, where does she come up with this stuff? These books will take you on so many intense twists and turns that you never see coming. You finish one book and you think 'how could anything cooler happen in the next book?' But it does!

I just read the fourth (and last book) last night, and it is the best book I've read in my entire life. So just do it.

That's all.