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So... I'm applying to be on MTV's MADE. I want to be made into a drummer. I filled out my application, and made my video today. I still have to edit it and send it in. But I seriously want this soooo bad!!!! I hope I get it...
I dont really have anything to write about...
i want it so bad!!!!

So if you can't tell by my title, my new "hobby" is working out. I love it! I decided I will work out Tuesdays, Thursdays, and Saturdays (why I'm telling you this I have NO idea, lol). I'm really feeling better! So these past couple days have been really good... I dont exactly know why, I guess since nothing bad has happened =) Levi and Talitha are officially over. HALLELUJA! I'm not even gonna go into details about it because I just want to move on from that migraine! lol.

Everything has been really awesome ever since my dad has been home. It's amazing seeing him how happy it is when he's with Makenna. He comes home, picks her up, laughs with her, smiles, talks with her. (If you know my dad, I'm sure you know he's not really a "laughing" kind of guy, well at least he didnt use to be) So it's awesome seeing this change in him, it makes me happy.

Ok so also there's this guy.. danget! I know, I dont date. But Taylor Case. Hmm what to say about this... Well I pretty much like him, and he pretty much likes me too. We talked about stuff. I explained to him that I dont want to date, but that I did like him, he totally agreed with me, and thought that going out would ruin our friendship in the end. And we both love spending time with each other and hanging out together. Today we walked to Taco Bell, everyone teased me about it being a date, lol. It wasnt, it did feel kind of awkward though. But come on, Its Taco Bell!! lol.

Well that's about all the new stuff going on in my life. There are a couple "uh-oh" grades for this semester, but my mom told me not to stress about it, so that made me feel a lot better. =)

Well that's all for today, God bless!
Sara

This week has been really good. Ever since I got back from Ski Retreat, and applied those things (that I told you before) to my life, I have been in such a better mood, I've had more energy, and am just having better days! It rocks. Well except for today...lol. I got up, and my stomach felt really weird. I thought if I ate something it would help, it didnt. So I tried drinking some water, I think all that just made it worse. So I'm on my way to school, and I just feel SO nausues. (spelling). And so I had Levi turn around and take me home. So then I realized I was super tired, but it was getting light outside so it was hard to sleep. So I moved my feather mattress and bedding in the bathroom, because it was dark, lol. I dont know why my stomach was being all weird, I feel better now, but still a little nausues.

Danget! I hate it when I miss school! grr..

Well Levi and Talitha broke up (yesss!) And I hope it stays that way. She writes him messages on myspace and stuff. And for some reason she just CANT find anyone else to give her a ride to work so he does. But I dont think he's stupid, I dont know why either of them would want to get back into that relationship.
Oh yah and another really good thing. Sam got into outpatient treatment, 3 days a week. I'm really happy for him.

Well that's all for now, pray for me to feel better! =]
Sara

get over it. just kidding. So I ended up going to Snow, and I'm really glad I did. Unfortunetly it wasnt THAT significant or cool or exciting or a big changing event, which it doesnt have to be, but last year's ski retreat just seemed better. It was still awesome to hang out with the coolest people I know, and worship God, and just have a good time. I did change actually, it was a good chance for me to look at my life, and decide to change it (change starting tomorrow, lol).

Here are some of the things I decided:
- I need to spend less time doing unimportant things (internet, TV, etc.)
- And spend more time doing more important things ( Reading my bible, devos, exercising)
- I need to seperate myself from negative things (gossip, arguments, over all negative people)
- I need to focus on myself first ( No I'm not a brat, I have just put myself aside for a while)

Well that's all for now, but I'm sure there will be more! Let's just say I'm ready for a change. WAAHOO!!

This week has been so strange. It started off really good. Why? Because Im so shallow, and I have new clothes, lol. Yah, this week started off good, because I got new clothes. What the heck Sara. lol. Anyways, then the week took an awful turn, something I dont really care to share online. Its super gross and embarassing. Lets just say it involved the most pain I've ever been in in my life, but a gross, long, embarassing trip the Urgent Care unit at St. Peters. So I have been home from school for two days. I wasnt able to go get my dad from Yakima so that upset me a lot. I really wanted to seem him walk out of that place. But oh well, he's home now, so that's what really matters. And on top of that, I have been getting incurable migraines for the past couple days. I have taken 2 Vikadin, that didnt help at all, so I took 3 more Ibproufen (my mom said if I died I probably wouldnt mind right then, she was right). So that was last night. This morning the migraine was still there, so I took 2 extra strength excedrin migraine, that didnt help, so I took..oh yah, and Advil sinus, and finally I can walk around without wanting to kill myself. lol. So Im pretty much not going to be able to go to SNOW. Its hard, im so bummed, but im ok with it. If I dwell and pout that will just make me more miserable, So im just trying to accept it.

I kind of think that these migraines are from being so stressed out because I just realized I am SUCH a control freak. gahh. Talitha and Levi are driving me INSANE, along with Lauren and Sam, well not really Lauren, just Sam. But Lauren putting up with Sam makes me so frustrated. I just wish I could have time with my brother, alone, without Talitha calling every two minutes, without him being upset because Talitha is being dramatic about him seeing a girl on TV. OH MY GOSH IT DRIVES ME SO CRAZY. She is so selfish, it drives me nuts. I dont even get to talk to Levi anymore, he is ALWAYS with her. And she still complains when he hangs out with his friends, or they arent together WHICH NEVER HAPPENS. But for some reason she still complains. She so freakin selfish Im going crazy. See, and this is why I have migraines, I think.
Ok im going to go now because I have to stop thinking about this.

So yesterday I said I wanted to accomplish something more in my day. And today...I DID!! lol.
But it was sort of on accident...
At YOUth Church, Brad gave us notes so we could write down what our top 7 priorities are, and what we wish they were. Mine went like this:

1. Me
2. Makenna
3. School
4. Friends
5. God
6. Helping (like around the house, etc.)
7. ASB


WiSH
1. God
2. Me
3. My family
4. School
5. Helping
6. Friends
7. ASB

So what did I accomplish today? I realized my priorities were NOT right. I want to change my REALiTY priorities into my WiSH priorities. And it WILL happen, lol. How do I do that? Constantly thinking about it, constantly thinking about it. Yahh...

Well have a wonderful, glorious, fantastic week!!
-->>Sara

Well another day has ended, it's coming to a close. I ask myself, what did I acomplish today? Umm...nothing too spectacular. I cleaned my room, took care of Makenna most of the day, stretched. I wish that I would realize that I am just wasting so many days. Im not like, mad at myself or anything. I just wish I would think about it. I set all these New Years resolutions, but am I spending my free time to try to acheive them? Practice them? Nope. I should start though. I really need to buy new strings for my guitar, so maybe I can actually learn something on it. I need to get my drum set set back up, and then find someone to give me lessons. I need to take more time for myself, working out, and eating better. Dont want to become a fatty, lol.
Well I guess today was a good day, "relaxing" lol. I appreciate my mom so much, she is such a super hero I swear. My whole family would be so lost without her. I just wish she would realize that more often. I wish I had more time with my brother. It sort of makes me angry how sometimes Talitha gets mad at him, because he spends some time with his friends, and not "enough" with her. But, we dont get to see him at all, because he's with her. So honestly I dont think she realizes how selfish she is about their time, how much she took him away from us.
Im so glad my dad is coming home this week! It seems like yesterday when me and my mom dropped him off. And I was thinking to myself, "I am going to miss him so much, it's going to feel like forever." But honestly, it doesnt seem like that long. I mean of course I miss him! But it wasnt as long as I thought it would be, probably because I spent 3 days with him last weekend.
And I am so excited for the ski retreat! I heard there's only like..18 people going though, that would be soo lame! I hope it will be cool. Even if there's not it will be cool, Im sure we will all get...closer. lol.
Well goodnight,
Sara