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Matt and I are doing a good job at being broken up. It's hard to break up with someone with nothing bad happened, or there are no ill feelings, because then it kind of creates ill feelings. I told Matt that God was telling me we needed to be apart, and he says he totally understands. He says he isnt hurt, he feels ok, he was just a little caught off gaurd. I'm glad he's not hurt, because that was the main reason I was hurting, was because I didnt want to break his heart. Im glad Im not. But then there is the whole deal of... how do you break up with someone that you are fine with? Doesnt it create a little bit of anger? It's hard to remove someone from your life who you are ok with being there. It's hard to cause yourself pain, when the other person hasnt. are you following?

we are doing a good job. and im glad he's helping. I felt so bad for being the one to do the seperating that I told him I wanted him to make all the decisions, haha. [like what our friendship would look like from here] we havent talked about that stuff yet. we havent really talked much at all. which I think is good. It's not that I dont like talking to him, but it does really smack us in the face with the reality that we are APART.